NEVER ENDING STORY-Lets be psychotic: December 2011

Thursday, December 22, 2011

how do you deal with problems? even if you've dealt with it, will it be gone forever? or will it be there, wedged into somewhat washer machine syndrome that goes round and round and in the end you'd eventually still be stuck with it, again (?) hmm. thinking about thinking.

ever wondered why things happened to you in a time phase where you are most probably ought to say this; "why now? why is this happening to me now?" when the thing that you never want it to happen to you but happened anyway? hmm, well, i myself am currently battling some things. a lot has been happening right now and i am not gonna back down, i'm gonna fight it cos you know why? cos i always have a thing for this saying; everything happens for a reason. and as a Muslim, i believe that Allah has already set some plans for me. :)

and for that, i am content.

these silent thoughts,

that i try to keep deep inside of me,

these silent emotions,

that i wish not to show,

these silent words,

that i wish to say to you,

but i can't.

these eyes,

these hands,

this heart,

they're mourning,

and they will always be,

until they see the light of thee.

greetings from the underworld

i've been gone for a while, i know.

seriously, i've been going through a lot of things, too many things on my mind, too much things to take into mind. i'm stressed, but now, not anymore, i think. i'm so packed with stacks of works and life hasn't been exactly been the best of a friend that i really need right now. i have to make a lot of decisions. sacrifices, for me, for my life.

i can't make your heart beat fast every single day,

i can't make you proud like every hour of the day,

i can't make you smile every millisecond of every hour,

i can't always tell jokes that'll make you laugh constantly,

i can't always be there when you need a shoulder to lean on,

i can't be a girly girl cos this is how i really am,

i can't always be 'that' person,

i'm only human,

i don't have any special powers of any kind,

all i can do is love you,

every single day.

Thursday, December 15, 2011

"if you wade around forever, you will surely drown."

annoyed

i keep losing sleep every now and then. idk why. maybe my body's trying to tell me something. sometimes i shiver easily, my body somewhat aches whenever i get like too cold or whatever, and it really hurts like shit, and i don't mean it in a metaphorical way. it gets really annoying cos it's giving me like a really hard time to like travel. idk what's going on inside my body, idk whether is it still functioning well or not. haha. i'm a robot.