i HATE you !! ♥

i'm not gonna lie, i miss them, all of them. but i don't get it, i mean why can't we be... hmm. never mind. always be content with what you have right now  AQEELLA. i just can't stop thinking about the good old times. i know that i usually talk in riddles, rhymes, whatever, but now, i don't feel like it. i don't feel like doing or stopping anything right now. i just... idk. i feel a bit shitty right now. bye.

If you spend too long holding on to the one who treats you like an option, 

you will miss finding someone who treats you 

like a priority

donow

I don't care if you wear crazy makeup, 

dress up in fucking drag, or anything else. 

If you have good music, I'll listen.

=0o=

MISSYOUOLD

i'm trying

to hate. but it hurts so much. hmph.

everything that's going on around me is seriously going at it's highest speed and it's fucking annoying. i need it all to stop. all stopping at once, except one. please. i'm not that much of a Hulk as i claim to be. so please. stop keying the same key into my fucking door knob.

penat

semua perasaan,

semua kemarahan,

semua tangisan,

semua perasaan,

di tolak ketepi,

maaf lah jika terlalu menjengkelkan.

biar apa orang mahu caci,

biar semua lontaran,

biar apa saja,

biar.

aku tetap orang yang sama,

aku tetap berdiri,

aku tetap menulis,

aku tetap melihat,

aku tetap bernafas,

aku tetap berfikir,

walau ada yang remuk, pecah, retak, segala.

aku tetap akan terus,

aku tak akan toleh,

tidak sekali pun.

.SURVEYSSS.

Who are you?
I am Aqeella Jaafar . I’m just a simple ordinary girl. I am not arrogant as you think. I can be a good friend to you unless you pissed me off. I am happy with my life right now because all the negative things, I’ve been thrown it away into the dustbin. I am not a perfect person as nobody’s perfect. I love to do stupid things in my own stupidity and do not judge me by its cover. I’m just being my self. I’m not the other person and I’m not a copycat to you. It is hard for me to get angry on you, but if the builder of my patience is over the limit, I will not hesitate to give you a piece of shit. Remind that.


What do you think about the people around you?
Some are good and some are bad. I hate the bad one. They are the backstabber. They are giving a fake smile to someone. They are thinking that they are a good enough. They are thinking that they are a hotstuff when wearing expensive garments. But, they are not. The truth is they are the loser.

List three items that you want to own.
1- Polaroid camera.
2- A new wallet. *I need a new one because the old wallet that I used until now is really making me sick.
3- wokswagen golf .. HAHAHAHA : D errrr ~

What is your nickname?
Qyla, Qiqi, Lala, gila, Qiee, princess (itu saja mnambah ) . But, I prefer them to call me Qyla ..

Describe the meaning of love.
Love is like a rainbow. It was full with different kinds of color that brighten your day.

What is your favorite color?
For sure, YELLOW !!

Leave your message.
Hi hellar, I hate you. Could you please stop disturbing my life? Thank you.

.EMOTIONAL .

EMO or being emotional always happened to someone. Doesn't matter you are a good or bad person. Everyone is right and at the same time wrong on being emo. Everyone has their own opinions and no one should shut them up no matter what others think, or if they don't agree. To never hold anything back and always look for a you that you feel comfortable in, and all the people who call the others posers, who are you to judge that? 

Hello, everyone is still human, still people trying to find themselves in this image crazed world. There's no right or wring thing to think or say. For instance, when your mother tells you to appreciate your specials, it's not just to get you to shut up. They know that when you're old, you will feel the same like they did. So, listen. Everyone is different. You may talk or judge the other people. But, before you judge them you should judge about yourself first. Simple.

equality

Aku tertarik dengan presentation dari kawan aku. Dia punya tajuk presentation "equality". First, I was wondering, apa sebenarnya dia nak cuba ajar. Last, baru aku faham. Simple dan menarik cara dia. Aku suka. Serius, aku ingatkan dia nak buat sambil lewa je apa dia nak ajar, but cara dia okay jugak. Okay, actually entry aku bukan sebab dia but apa yang aku faham tentang equality.

Okay, equality is the belief that all or some people ought to be treated equally. Get it? It is about fair. Same quantity. Not less or not more. Equal. What I can see, most people around me, didn't treat their people or community equally. They love to focus more on the highest one rather than helping the lowest. Come on, open your eyes! Some people tend to help the moderate people. Give them the money, education or yet, built a new house for them. But, what about the lowest income of person? Where are the helper? Where are the money? Education?

" Equality is not in regarding different things similarly, equality is in regarding different things differently."

You will wake up and open your eyes brightly when there is an advertisement at the tv's about there is certain people need your help. They need to survive. They need your money. They want everything. They have to educate their child to continue their study. At that time, you tend to help them. Your face are shown on the newspaper. Come on, you are a fake! You are not honest. You just want others to know you. You want to be famous. Am I right? Hello, open your eyes. We are just the same. We breathe the same air. We stand on the same earth. We hold the same wind. We are not different from each other. Only specialty makes us difference. Hey beautiful people, you have not to be arrogant to the person from lower class. One day, you will become like that. Trust me.

Do you still remember, our old generation of 20century, they are not easy to survive. They hardly work out to find money. Money to support their life. To support us, their child. Their power. For them, 20cent is quite much. They can use the 20cent to buy nasi lemak. Not for us now, we just ignoring the 20cent. We only focus to rm10 or more. Come on, if you keep the 20cent and save, it will become rm200 per month.

Ladies, gents.

Open your eyes! Treat people equally. Please.

"You can see she smile, but she's hurt inside.

You can see she listens to all your stories, but she kinda jealous inside.

You can hear she said she miss you and she really mean it."

i am .

In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me. I own my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears. I own my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes. Because I own all of me, I can become intimately acquainted with me. By so doing, I can love me and be friendly with all my parts. I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me, and other aspects that I do not know.

As long as I am friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and ways to find out more about me. However I look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically me.

If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought, and felt turn out to be unfitting, I can discard that which is unfitting, keep the rest, and invent something new for that which I discarded. I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do. I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive, and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me. I own me, and therefore, I can engineer me. I am me and I am okay.

just smiling : )

‘I’m fine’ is the biggest lie I’ve ever told.

Because personally.. No I am not fine. Everything in my mind is fucked up. Everything is fucked up. I just don’t want anyone to know or get involved in my personal problems because I know for a fact that they won’t even care. It’s hard to find a true friend who is willing to listen to you and wont judge you for what situation your going through.

Sometimes.. Hiding the truth is better than telling the truth. Keeping every problem to your self is difficult enough, but try solving your own problems by yourself.

My own thoughts.

My own opinions.

My own feelings.

QiqiLala

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